palm.bee, in all her glory.

aside from being sat on,

by the mathewson household cat, christmas, palm.bee is actually doing well. shes down to one strand of palm, the cat sat on the rest and they feel out. hahah.

anyways. i realized something. im not worried about palm.bee.

let me explain. upon getting this plant, the first thing on my mind was obviously 'i cant kill it.' and upon thinking that, i began worrying about what benefits poor palm.bee would be missing out on. instead of helping her, i smothered her. so, i stopped worrying. to my surprise, the soil is still wet after almost 2 weeks, and the one strand that is left is thriving.. green and everything. im not sure how to explain, maybe breathing indiana air. who am i to say?

im missing everyone more and more everyday. but God has not let me down. indiana has been such a blessing.. the weather is GLOOORRIIOOUUSSSS. i found out the other day ive been taking vitamins meant for seniors.. who cares, they're berry flavored.

THANK YOU! im grateful for everyones prayers. you dont realize what youre stirring even praying 1000 miles away.

heart means everything.

poor palm.bee.

shes been thrown and hit, and dumped and bruised and kicked all over the place on this trip. i dont know how much more she can take! SHES FALLING APART!

crap.. i mean, DANG!

today Ed told me i can never disappoint him. i know, weve all heard this before, but this time i thought about my dearest friends. how much i care about each of them, and fnd myself telling them the same thing. this time, i related with his compassion, and realized in that moment, how much i am dearly loved.

palm.bee was pruned yesterday. looking much better without the brown accents tied in there c;

integrity.

dear Ed,

i must confess. i told you the other day, that my committment for this week would be not to speed. we all know this is a serious issue i have. the first few days were fine, i only went 3 over both days combined. yesterday, however, i found myself feeling very confused, and inturn, i got very frustrated. it came out in my driving. as i was taking sarah love home, i caught myself going 10 over, and the thing is, i didnt care.

it caused me to question what i know about committment.. how much do i care about Ed not to let him down. how much do i care about the interns to help keep them accountable with my actions alone. how important is God to me, if i cant keep this committment, as small as it is.

im not looking for anything from anyone. im confessing, and letting you know, Ed, that i am sorry. and i am working harder, because i care for you guys to much to not hold my word.

love, andrea.

my leaves!

i set my palm.bee outside in sunlight, knowing full well i was late doing my assignment from the 29th and this would probably be the last time she saw sunlight for another week. go inside, and clean my room.. well needed. come back out, and the leaves have turned brown. AH! ED! I NEED SOME BONUS WATERING!

conviction flashback.

on day 5 of this assignment, i was driving to work with my plant (later known as plam.bee) placed in the back seat. with the windows rolled down, i started cruising down I-4 at about 83mph.. i know, i know.. not cool. i quickly realized i was going 13 over, and hit the breaks. i slow down to 70 and wait.. 'OH MY GOSH! MY PLANT! IS IT OKAY?!' frantically, i reach back to plam.bee and make sure she was still in tact.. just like a mother with her child. she was fine. WHEW! from that moment, ive seen this stinkin plant as a stinkin child, and cant bring myself to speed ANYWHERE!



mother andrea, and her baby palm.